Dream. Illusion. Delusion.

January 17, 2016 § 2 Comments

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Whether sitting in meditation or practicing mindfulness, the alert mind may spin into daydreams or a state of dreaminess that is marked by a dimming awareness. At other times thoughts and images arise that arouse intense emotions of fear, anxiety or depression. These feelings mar the meditation by impelling the ego to defend itself against a perceived threat to its integrity. Where the first obstacle to practice is dreaminess, the second is illusion that involves a false version of the self and its relationship to the world. Examples of this latter state are the belief that one is being judged as bad or under threat when no actual threat exists.

To believe that dreams and illusory states are true representations of reality is delusion. However, dreams and illusion may arise without one being deluded as to their true nature. Just as it is possible to enter a lucid state while asleep and know that one is dreaming, it is also possible to be lucid during the day while daydreaming or suffering illusory thoughts. As in sleep, the range of this awareness may vary from pre-lucid states where one wonders if his or her thoughts are true, to full lucidity where one knows his or her version of reality isn’t real at all.

In one way we may say that Buddhist practice aims to create a state of unbroken lucidity where dream illusion has lost its ability to confuse and delude the practitioner with its false version of reality. However, this lucid state should not be confused with the truly enlightened state that transcends thought entirely.

Many begin their spiritual path when life’s obstacles start to get the better of them. It is understandable that in such circumstances much attention is given to stilling troublesome thoughts. There comes a time, however, when it seems that with each thought stilled, another arises. At this point the practitioner may feel like the child that plugs a leak in a dyke with one finger only to have two more open beside it. Experiencing this, the realization dawns that further tinkering with thought will not lead to true peace of mind.

Buddhism recognizes that the very nature of thought creates fundamental problems that cannot be solved by further thinking. Buddhist practice therefore aims to break the human addiction to thinking by having the practitioner focus on one point. Be it the breath, a koan or mindfulness all effort is made to attend to one object to the exclusion of all else. In doing so, as already mentioned, thoughts will seem to arise innumerably one after the other, however, the aim is not to engage these thoughts by trying to shut them down but simply to return the attention again and again to the meditation object. In this way thought is allowed to fade into the background just as outer sounds did at the beginning of one’s practice.

Through continuous practice all illusory thought and accumulated knowledge is cut away. Everything that muddies and obscures clear awareness is dropped. As extra thinking is let go your efforts come to fruition. There is no more illusion or delusion, no more heaven and earth, no more self. Just freedom. But this is still not the complete picture for then comes the return where your true self is actualized. As the poet Moritake wrote:

A fallen flower

       Returning to the branch?

         It was a butterfly.


To Awaken

June 22, 2014 § 2 Comments

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The Buddha expounded the Dharma to show humanity how to overcome bondage to appearance. He is called the Fully Awakened One because he saw life as a fabric of dream illusions upon which we have become transfixed as if in a hypnotic trance. To Awaken is to break the trance and see the thoughts of waking consciousness as no more real than the images seen in dreams when asleep.

When we awake from sleep we know our dream to have been unreal. No matter how involved we were in its seeming reality, when we wake we do not check the bedroom for the people who were chasing us in our sleep. We put the dream aside to deal with the waking world.

To Awaken is to see that our day’s thoughts are no more real than the ones we had when we slept. It is like waking up from a dream, then waking up from our day thoughts.

To the unawakened, thoughts are not only seen to be true, they are seen to be real and powerful. There is a compulsion to act when a thought arises. There is a belief in the ‘this or that’ which creates irrational fear. There is a belief in the righteousness of political ideology and religious faith. In all of this there is, as the Buddha pointed out, a bondage to appearance as we are ruled by our thoughts instead of ruling them.

The Awakened one sees thought in the same way we see our dreams. There is no urge to act, just an option to act or not act. The ‘this or that’ that formerly created fear is now seen as nothing more than a mental image without substance.  Any system of thought is seen as neither more nor less valid than any other. In seeing this, the Awakened one finds no reason to argue, no reason to fight or go to war. Having seen the reality of awareness, the Awakened one is at peace.

To be a Fully Awakened Buddha is to realize all of life is a dream illusion. The first step in this realization is to plant the seed of doubt in the accuracy of your thoughts about reality.  The first step is to see how these thoughts, this appearance, holds you in sway.  Once planted, the seed of doubt will take root and grow into a tree that will one day bear the fruit of your Awakening.

Nelson Mandela, 1918-2013

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The Dream

August 23, 2012 § Leave a comment

This morning I awoke from a dream where I was trying to open the front door but it was being held shut from the other side.  I considered turning on the porch light to see who was holding the door but it was clear if I did so the intruder would scamper away.  At the same time in the dream there was nothing on the other side of the door.  Literally nothing.  But as dreams follow a different kind of reasoning from waking logic, there was also an intelligence or force of some kind that lay behind the door.  It was not a beneficent force but seemed indifferently judgmental.

This dream has a strong after effect.  Even now, several hours latter, when I walk past the front door I seem to sense that whatever’s behind it can’t be comprehended by the mind.  It is not conceptual.

Now when it comes to dream interpretation the best book I ever read is Ann Faraday’s, “The Dream Game”.  In it she writes that unlocking the hidden meaning of your dreams first involves ascertaining the theme of the dream, then associating it to some event within the past 24 to 48 hours of your life.  The theme in my dream is trying to discover the nature of an intruder but being blocked by an unseen force.  In Ann Faraday’s thinking this is a “saboteur dream” because my effort to uncover something is being sabotaged.

Faraday writes that saboteurs can be either a psychological topdog or underdog, terms coined by the late Fritz Perls of Gestalt therapy fame.  The topdog is an internalized authority figure trying to impose its will on the rest of the personality that then becomes the underdog trying to outwardly please the topdog while still trying to get its own needs met.  At first glance this might seem similar to Freud’s notions of the superego and the id, however, Faraday points out that while the topdog usually equates to superego functions it does not always do so.  Sometimes elements of the id may become a topdog authority figure that tries to impose its will on the superego that then becomes the underdog.

Returning to my dream, as I mentioned the force behind the door was “indifferently judgmental” I suspect a judgmental topdog aspect of my personality is being projected onto the non-conceptual (i.e., “indifferent”) Self.  As that Self is also seen as an intruder this suggests I see the Self in some way as a threat, not surprising considering the Self is a threat to the ego’s position of authority in the personality.

As to the event in the past 24 to 48 hours the dream is commenting upon, it’s likely this is last night’s meditation wherein I continued to seek to do nothing: a reference to the Tao Te Ching where it says, “If nothing is done, then all will be well.”  This is similar to Gangaji’s admonishment to “stop” seeking the Self.  This would seem to be confirmed by the reference in the dream that if I turned on the porch light the intruder would scamper away.  This is a clear reference to how attempting to conceptualize the Self, i.e., turn on the porch light, separates one from the Self.

Putting this together, last night’s dream is telling me that my fear of being judged and my tendency to judge is sabotaging my efforts to know Self.  But more importantly, the dream is presenting an image that I can use when conceptualizing that which is beyond concepts.  That image is of the Self as “nothing on the other side of the door”.

One final note, in Patricia Garfield’s “Creative Dreaming” she writes that the Malaysian tribe known as the Senoi encourage dreamers to “achieve a positive outcome”.  To me, this image of Self as “nothing on the other side of the door” is one of the most positive outcomes I can think of to end this interpretation of the dream.

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